To je za padanje, ki je tako blizu propadanju,
ali kot je zvrniti se blizu zvrniti ali zavrniti; v smislu ko
sem izvedela, da si tu,
sem morala zvrniti kozarček; v smislu zavrnila sem ti vstop
v svoje življenje; v smislu od vsega slabega bom padla skupaj:
pasti v nemilost, odpasti od Boga,
biti drug drugemu kot mana, ki pade z neba, ali pa pasti
skozi rešeto,
pada sneg, pada dež, padajo zvezde,
nevzdrževana hiša propade,
pasti v slabo družbo,
pasti na trda tla, pasti kot Jessica,
ki je padla v vodnjak in opazovala
počasno prehajanje svetlega kroga
sonca in lune, kajti dvojčka, ki začneta
tako blizu skupaj, morata
za preostanek življenja razpasti na dvoje
ali pa biti prekleta, zgruditi se po pobočju
kot brat, slediti kot sestra,
biti polje in postati prah, rediti otroka na grudih,
za vrtoglavico, sestrično padanja,
za stolpe in stopnice in pločnike,
ki so povzročitelji padanja,
za belo pečino postelje,
za plezalce in krovce in gimnastičarje,
za pravi način padanja,
z mlahavimi in ohlapnimi udi,
razpasti po smrti,
za vrvi in ograje in ključavnice,
ki odnesejo dejanje padanja noter,
za listopad, ki je nekoč pomenil
november in ki pomeni, da listi
kot kovanci raznih barv
padajo iz žepov dreves,
kar pomeni temnejše večere,
kar pomeni sprehajanje psov,
kar pomeni sprehajati se sam
in ne razpasti ob zvenu
lastnega imena, ki, Bog
mi je priča, zveni kot padanje.
Prevod: Jernej Županič
This is for falling which is so close to failing
or to falter or fill; as in I faltered when I heard
you were here; as in I filtered you out
of my life; as in I’ve had my fill of falling:
a fall from grace, a fall from God,
to fall in love or to fall through the gap,
snow fall, rain fall, falling stars,
the house falls into disrepair,
to fall in with the wrong crowd,
to fall out of love, to fall like Jessica
who fell down a well and watched
the bright disc of the sun and moon
slowly passing, for twins who start
so close together they must fall
apart for the rest of their lives
or be damned, to fall down a hill
like a brother, to follow like a sister,
to be a field and fall fallow, to fall pregnant,
for vertigo, the cousin of falling,
for towers and stairs and pavements
which are the agents of falling,
for the white cliff top of a bed,
for climbers and roofers and gymnasts,
for the correct way to fall,
loose-limbed and floppy,
to fall apart after death,
for ropes and fences and locks
which carry the act of falling inside,
for fall which over the ocean
means Autumn, which means leaves
like coins of different colours
dropped from the pockets of trees,
which means darker evenings,
which means walks with the dogs,
which means walking alone
and not falling apart at the sound
of your name, which God
help me, sounds like falling.
