Nekega dne bom rodila drobceno punčko
in, ko se bo rodila, bo kričala
in rekla ji bom, naj nikoli ne preneha.
Poljubila jo bom, preden jo sredi noči položim k spancu
in povedala ji bom zgodbico, tako da bo vedela,
kako je in kako mora biti, če hoče preživeti.
Rekla ji bom, naj zažge stvari
in jih pusti goreti.
Poučila jo bom, da je ogenj ne bo izničil,
da ga mora izrabiti.
Povedala ji bom, da si ljudje morajo prislužiti pravico,
da uporabljajo njen vzdevek,
da je vsiljena intimnost grda stvar.
Pomagala ji bom razumeti, da ne bo našla Boga
ali odrešitve v temačni opečnati zgradbi,
ki so jo zgradili mrtvi ljudje.
Poskrbela bom, da bo imela vselej pri sebi svinčnik,
da si lahko piše dokaze.
Če ne bo imela papirja, jo bom naučila
da si vse zapiše z jezikom,
da si zapiše na stegna.
Prisilila jo bom, da se bo vedno znova izumila ter da bo hitro tekla.
Poučila jo bom, naj piše svoje manifeste
na prtičke koktajlov.
Rekla ji bom, da morajo moški lizati njeno častihlepje.
Dopovedala ji bom, da več stane,
če je oblečena.
Poučila jo bom, naj bo odrezava.
Povedala ji bom, da ko se besede zgrnejo nanjo
in ji svinčnik ni več potreben,
da mora takrat pustiti službo,
steči iz hiše v kopalni halji,
pustiti vrata odprta.
Naučila jo bom, da sledi besedam.
Poskušale jo bodo pripraviti do tega, da ostane,
tolažile jo bodo, ji pustile spati, kopale jo bodo v sinjem siju televizije.
Postrigla ji bom lase, ji rekla, naj zažge hišo,
pobije mačje mladiče,
ko ne bo več ničesar tam,
je nič ne bo moglo zadržati
in nje se ne sme zadržati.
Rekla ji bom, da jo je vse, kar je naredila, videla, izrekla,
pripeljalo do tega, tukaj, zdaj.
To ni čas za nežnost,
ni čas za postavanje, čakanje, da jo odkrijejo.
Njena koža je polna narodov.
Ženska kraljestva so brez ključev, ki bi jih lahko nosila.
Poučila jo bom, da v sebi nosi vojsko,
ki ji lahko reši življenje.
Naučila jo bom, da bo celovita, da bo sveta.
Naučila jo bom, kako živeti,
kako biti cela, tako da me sploh ne bo potrebovala več.
Rekla ji bom, naj hitro gre in naj se ne vrača.
Stvari se tukaj hitro zlomijo.
Naredila jo bom močnejšo, kot sem kdajkoli bila.
Pri dvajsetih
se bo razletela na zvezdne koščke
in se vrgla v nebo.
(leto 2006 je odlično leto,
da izgineš)
Ne bom jim dovolila, da ji uničijo življenje,
tako kot so ga uničili meni.
Rekla ji bom, naj nikoli ne pozabi, kaj so ti storili,
in jim nikoli ne da vedeti, da pomniš.
Nikoli ne pozabi, kaj so ti storili,
in nikoli jim ne daj vedeti, da pomniš.
Nikoli ne pozabi, kaj so ti storili,
in nikoli jim ne daj vedeti, da pomniš.
iz angleščine prevedel Dražen Dragojević
One day I'll give birth to a tiny baby girl
and when she's born she'll scream
and I'll tell her to never stop.
I will kiss her before I lay her down at night
and will tell her a story so she knows
how it is and how it must be for her to survive.
I'll tell her to set things on fire
and keep them burning.
I'll teach her that fire will not consume her,
that she must use it.
I'll tell her that people must earn the right
to use her nickname,
that forced intimacy is an ugly thing.
I'll help her to see that she will not find God
or salvation in a dark brick building
built by dead men.
I'll make sure she always carries a pen
so she can take down the evidence.
If she has no paper, I'll teach her to
write everything down with her tongue,
write it on her thighs.
I'll make her keep reinventing herself and run fast.
I'll teach her to write her manifestos
on cocktail napkins.
I'll say she should make men lick her ambition.
I'll make her understand that she is worth more
with her clothes on.
I'll teach her to talk hard.
I'll tell her that when the words come too fast
and she has no use for a pen
that she must quit her job
run out of the house in her bathrobe,
leave the door open.
I'll teach her to follow the words.
They will try to make her stay,
comfort her, let her sleep, bathe her in a television blue glow.
I will cut her hair, tell her to light the house on fire,
kill the kittens,
when nothing is there
nothing will keep her
and she is not to be kept.
I'll say that everything she has done seen spoken
has brought her to the here this now.
This is no time for tenderness,
no time to stand, waiting for them to find her.
There are nations within her skin.
Queendoms come without keys you can carry.
I'll teach her that she has an army inside her
that can save her life.
I'll teach her to be whole, to be holy.
I'll teach her how to live,
to be so much that she doesn't even
need me anymore.
I'll tell her to go quickly and never come back.
Things get broken fast here.
I will make her stronger than I ever was.
Turned at twenty
she'll break into bits of star
and throw herself against the sky.
(1999 is an excellent year
to disappear)
I will not let them destroy her life
the way they destroyed mine.
I'll tell her to never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember.
Never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember.
Never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember.
